“Many women do noble things but you surpass them all.” Proverbs 31:29
Recently I’ve been wanting God to wave his hand over my eyes and suddenly make me aware of my life’s calling.
“But how can you know what you want till you get what you want and you see if you like it?… What I want most of all is to know what I want” –“Cinderella”, Into the Woods
I’m so conflicted. I feel like everyone has something to be excited about and I’m just in the audience, watching them live their lives. I want a happy little family of my own, but what if our marriage isn’t ready for that? I want to go back to school, but what do I major in? I want to get a job, but where could I work? What if? What if? What if? Ifs, buts, maybes, ors… I have no concretes! I’m just waiting for God to work something out and I’m feeling completely clueless and a little bit jealous of everyone else who is taking action.
That’s my rant for the day… I’m feeling a little lacking in the surpassing them all category… I want an adventure. I want something to get excited about!